The enemy has a way of making the world look attractive and the things in the world. It looks like diamonds and sparkles like glitter. At first you dip your toe into it and think "that's not too bad" before long you are neck deep and thinking of every way possible to keep from drowning.
April 9th 2012 I gave my heart back to God and I was still with my abuser. I left him for the last time may 11th 2012. I was a backslidden christian and went from singing in church all my life to singing in bars. This is where I met my abuser. Being in the world for many years caused a film to form over my eyes. What I considered wrong was now right for me. I met this man and since I never had an authority figure other than my mother, I was attracted to him. He was the football type model of a person everyone wanted is what my mind tricked me into believing. As time went on I realized he had been in so much trouble before and had done what he was doing to me to several other women. (He also was hated by his own mom) I covered all that up by believing him when he would go into the ( its everyone's fault but mine) -this is how the enemy lies to you. When I gave my heart back to God the only way I can describe is: standing there at the alter scared alone not knowing anyone I asked to be prayed for. I wept before God. A peace came over me it was a feeling of Love! And I haven't felt love in four years. Over the next two weeks through God's wisdom and him guiding my steps. I was able to make a safe escape from my abuser. God is merciful. Through my obediance to him he has been faithful to me. It's been one month today since I left my abuser. The peace and joy of having that film that was over my eyes pulled away is something I never want to forget and take for granted.
Jun 11, 2012
attraction by: mindy
When someone abuses you sexually, emotionally and physically over time the attraction is no longer there. I began waking up and looking at the person I was telling I loved everyday and becoming sick to my stomach. He was draining me in every aspect of my life. How can a man love someone with two hands and then abuse them with the same two hands. How can someone tell you they love you with the same mouth and then from the same lips cuss you and belittle you until you actually believe what they are saying. After awhile the same person I thought was attractive was really the ugliest person that I have ever met. Just remember you are a beautiful person and there are men out there that are beautiful also. It's what comes from the inside of that person that makes them attractive.
Jun 09, 2012
Attraction by: Anonymous
your story is so much like mine, it makes me wonder if it's the same man. The attraction, how did you overcome that attraction.....