Your story sounds exactly like mine word for word. And I understand what you mean, I still tell myself all the time that just because I didn't have black eyes and broken ribs it wasn't really abuse. But it isn't true it's a lie we tell ourselves. NO MAN has the right to ever put his hands on you or scream at you or call you names or control you or take something precious and private from you that you are not willing to give! All you can do is keep pushing forward smash that rearview mirror and don't look back. Trust in yourself and God and your own inner strength to get you through this! I'm not going to lie to you and tell you it will be easy because it won't be it will hurt for a while and there will need to be a struggle but you can't give up. Because if you stay no matter what he says he will NOT change and it will get worse. Always remember a person is not who they say they are in the last conversation you had with them, they are who they have been all along!
Just take it one day at a time and the one thing I can promise you is you will start to feel better the clouds will start to clear and the sun will slowly make it's way out. Until you find yourself and feel worthwhile. To help you along the way pick up things you like to do and follow your passions to take your mind of the pain (music,art,career...etc.). Good luck to you